Wednesday, November 29, 2006

got scratched by ah seng's cat on the neck. but she's so cute x) anyway, ONE LAST PAPER on friday! it's kinda sucky when everyone has finished theirs and yours ends on the very last day, last slot! and i started like 15 nov! hahaha sorry lah i know i whine alot. lol. then this morning da xiong was like shouting "我考完了!" when he came back to hall. -_-

last night was delirious. it has come to a point where it's not because you refuse to put in any effort. but it's like no matter how much you do, that's all you can do. as though you've reached your saturation point. and the fucked up thing is, that saturation point is like, what? barely 50% of that frigging difficult module?! ahhh. still, i'm thankful that there're people like julian and lixiang who were there and tried to calm me down. thanks guys =)

oh yes dawn, lau vincent and i cooked pasta for dinner last night. if it wasn't for lau vincent, dawn and i would certainly have created a mess. hahaha. initially it looked okay... but... somehow there was this chaota taste lah. haha. and the situation was way weird last night. we were in shiming's and hengwei's room( they're roomies by the way) so shiming and dawn were like the newly-attached lovey dovey couples while hengwei and ruth were like unofficially together but close nonetheless. so elisha, lau vincent and i were like 3 huge light bulbs there. haha. anyway am really happy for dawn. can tell that she's happily in love now. haha. shiming's her first. she's a really sweet and nice girl. lucky sm!=)

alrighty gotta go mug for friday's finale. ahhhhhhh.

I dreamt of you.
Of how much i mean to you.
but wait, didn't i say it was a dream?
dreams aren't supposed to be real, aint they?
oh well.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

omg dawn and shiming are together!!! LOL congrats babe.

Monday, November 27, 2006

Baby
Oh the secret's safe with me
There's nowhere else in the world that I could ever be
And baby don't it feel like I'm all alone
Who's gonna be there after the last angel has flown
And I've lost my way back home
I think nobody knows no
I said nobody knows




i hate the way i'm feeling now.
i don't wanna feel this way.
screw it.

Friday, November 24, 2006

lau vincent to dawn : you're too much. you came to disturb me cuz you'd 10mins to spare before you left for your paper and i couldnt sleep after you've left! and so... i slept till 1115pm and all i did was a few pages of my notes. it's all your fault!

hahaha...

then lau vincent went on about what happened a month ago when dawn went to look for him while waiting for ky to drive her home. and similarly, she interrupted his sleep. lol.

hengwei : but that happened so long ago! you still remember?
LV : but it happens not once but twice!
dawn: nvm lah, once a month only!
LV: you think its the da yi ma is it?!

LOL

LV: then next time gotta wrap you in whisper with ultra wings.

hahahahahaha.

i'm going home today! :D another week to go.


why do we get depressed all of a sudden?
like these 'moments' just hit you real hard.
or is it just me.

what's going on...

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Monday, November 20, 2006

HAPPY 27TH TO MY SIS.
HAPPY 24TH TO LAU VINCENT.
HAPPY 22TH TO ELDINE.

and hopefully eldine will be blessed with his 'birthday' luck for his paper in erm, 7hrs+ later.

and i've french paper at 1pm later!
GODBLESSME.

Saturday, November 18, 2006

it's my choice coming this far to uni. this destination has been my desired aim since o levels.
now that i'm here, there's no turning back let alone giving up. we've got to be responsible for our own decisions. no matter how fucked up this system is, a rational move would be to endure and overcome it.

meeting my parents tomorrow afternoon! im so homesick. and mum says she bought taiwan muah-chee! it's really nice! =) all these makes up for the overwhelming sadness earlier on. it's like you're here alone, stressed, homesick, feeling fucked up, going crazy etc. to sum it up, it feels like shit.

and when i told jy i was homesick, he said he'd come to my hall now when he lives in tampines! haha so nice right. but then i said no cuz if he were to come there goes my studying time. lol.

"Love is when he gives me a piece of my soul, that I never knew was missing"
this quote sounds abstract.
i wonder how it feels.

Friday, November 17, 2006

Thursday, November 16, 2006

haha lau vincent just finished his paper and he called to say he wants to drink dettol. because he couldn't do! lol.

oh yes and lau danny tan is now known as Pan-tee Tan. LOL! it was a hilarious evening yesterday. i was doubting if i was still sane judging by the amount of laughter and lame-ness i was portraying. i really need to tone down on my lame-ness. help!

hansel actually expects me to be present for his party when its the middle of exams?! thankfully he isn't my bf. so demanding and not a tad understanding at all. wth.

pending emotions.
the more i think, the more frustrated i get.
it's all so fucked up.
i just wanna wash my hands off this damn thing.
if only things can go the way i want it to be.
then again, its clearly impossible and i know it.
c'est impossible! (french)
AHHHH.
just leave me alone!

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

天空灰的像哭过
离开你以后 并没有更自由
酸酸的空气嗅出我们的距离
一幕最新的结局
像呼吸般无法停息

抽屉泛黄的日记
找到了回忆那笑容是夏季
你我的过去
被算是真的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情如星的眼泪是多余

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给了承诺
却被时间扑了空

我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里待续

this is the song.
how apt.

大头文 aka terence! stop spying on me! hahahaha.

who's the goondu that always bumps into things clumsily wherever she goes and gets "orh-cheis" everywhere?!

yours truly.

haha think i'm super bo liao.
byebye.

Monday, November 13, 2006

exams are coming. i know everyone is stress. but that doesn't make me any less stress. good luck all! aston has become my whining partner now. haa. sorry if i sound grumpy or anything to everyout out there. that's what pressure does to me. heh. ooo yes lau vincent treated me sakae on friday! muaha. but he failed his ippt on saturday. couldn't do a single pull-up! think he over-exerted himself already.

oh yah whenever exams are nearing, i'll always receive those "exam messages" or whatever you call it. during As last year i received a couple of the same texts that went "... if you don't send to __ people you won't do well blah blah " erm it's not that im superstitious lah but it gets quite disturbing. i remember once jasper actually sent to the number of people stated in the sms. lol. maybe that's why he got 3As. hmmm...

was a tad out of my mind yesterday. emotionally unstable that is. as though whatever that's beneath me has suddenly erupted. zzzzzzzzzzzz.

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.

got it from qr's blog who got it from socks. muhaha.

i really dont know whats wrong with me.
i think i'm inhuman.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

lau vincent cleaned our fan just now! but that's because we rattled on and on bout how bias he is when he cleaned dawn's fan. muhaha. anyhow, thanks! exams start next week! good luck everyone! guess everyone's super stressed now. it'll be over soon (: but im really so screwed. sigh.

its like certain things are destined. no matter how hard you try, things would never work out cuz of the existing factors which can never be altered or redeemed. and as odd as it seems, the outcome wasn't what i'd longed for. The right things at the wrong time would just be wrong afterall.

Cos I cant wait to figure out whats wrong with me.
So I can say this is the way that I used to be.
There's no substitute for time
Or for the sadness

Sunday, November 05, 2006

how come hansel doesn't seem to understand that i won't be able to make it for his birthday party cuz i'll be in the midst of having exams. gonna miss matthew's too. ( ade: YA! that ex-dunman sec guy. i forgot to mention that i met him outside dxo during my hall's dnd cuz he called to say that he was outside! felt so weird after not talking for like 4 yrs odd. )

wah its really unproductive being at home cuz all i do is eat and sleep. okay my wisdom tooth is hurting. why does it have to be out like, now! urghhhhh.

oh yah i just thought about a few corny incidents that have happened to me in ntu so far. firstly, i was stuck in the toilet cuz the knob was changed and somehow i couldnt open it. freaking embarrassing cuz alot of people seem to have heard about it already. secondly, i really have no idea why i blush and get all hot-faced whenever my french teacher asks me to read some texts in french. it's absolutely not cuz i've a thing for my french teacher okay! thirdly, our screams were heard from the first level ( we live on the 6th floor! ) when a flying cockroach flew into our room. fourthly, yf's alarm went off one morning and it went " XIAO BAI, XIAO BAI NI ZAI NA LI" and i woke up looking for "xiao bai". things like going to the wrong LTs and whatnots are mundane so nothing amusing. haha.

i should get back to studying.

"some of the best things in life are total mistakes."
how apt.

Saturday, November 04, 2006

i'm turning into mugger teo.
shucks~

i know i'm supposed to study now but now that i'm home, the feeling of slacking just sinks in. ahhhh. and it sucks when here you are trying to study but people are asking you out. am so tempted to drop whatever i was doing and head outside just now. anyway according to lau vincent who has had 3yrs of experience in ntu, life will get pretty unbearable for the next 3 weeks. then again its not like i'm anticipating anything exciting. haha.

and oh yes i actually passed my freaking tough french test though i got 2.5/10 for my listening cuz i really couldnt catch a damn thing the person was saying! plus being a tad retarded made things worst. anyhow, i've already SU-ed french so hopefully i'm able to make it for the finals so i'm able to clear the AUs. and no i aint talking bout get an A but a C which seems kinda... unattainable. sheesh~

okay this is so random and all i'm blogging about is school. but there's really nothing interesting going on when you're a no life student studying for the unwelcomed exams.

i desperately want my holidays even if it means having to come back to school for 9 frigging days cuz of the inter-hall games. (i'll rant bout this later when it starts hahaha). okay i should hit the books now before the sense of guilt hits me real hard.

perhaps it's the pressure i'm facing that causes me to feel emo-ish every other night. arghhh.

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And every time I'm filled with fear
Cuz every time I see your face
Could it be that this will be the one that lasts?
The fear does start to erase every time
Oh could it be that this will be the one that lasts
For all my times

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